Wednesday, September 13, 2006

On Getting a Grip

Yesterday my laptop died on me, and after rummaging through the yellow pages to find an HP service center within the vicinity of the region to determine the enormity of the problem - which took two hours - and getting there to find that the telephone conversation I had with the repair guy was in fact void of meaning as they do not repair HP laptops - which took an hour - after more yellow pages, more phone calls, vague directions to Sophia Antipolis to where the actual service center does exist (seriously surprising), after arriving there with the miracle of not ending up in the Alps somewhere, I was told (after 4 hours) with a broad smile that only the French adopt while delivering bad news; that my laptop is beyond repair. The mother board is burnt, and it would cost just as much to fix it as it would to buy a new one.

I wonder if the bilingual French sales rep had any idea how close to a nervous breakdown the girl in front of him was...
Here I was, dead laptop in hand, my life as I know it ending, being told that no I can't purchase a qwerty keyboard English version windows laptop in France, no, wait, maybe just for me he could get me an older model for around 800 EURO to be delivered in 2 weeks. I could feel the blood in my temples signaling the beginnings of passing out...

In my head I was going through the gory tedious process; text boss with death of laptop, ask for money, hope that boss replies this week, hope that budget is approved this month, hope that transfer comes through this year, and hope that C will then be able to get me that Dell laptop which is apparently the only option of a functional one that I can deal with that will arrive in France within one week. My world was crashing, my laptop had died, and I needed a replacement, NOW!

Tsk, tsk, what have I been reduced to? The absolute loss of faith and hope at the parting of ways with a machine? Is this what it has come to?

And it became apparent, as it is not that time of month, that I was going through a bout of hysteria... What was this about really? Is all this about T leaving? Deserting me in the south of France amongst the lost souls and the severely independent, every man for himself individualistic culture? Is this about him living the life I was meant to be living? Barefoot in St.Martin renting out sailing boats and wake boarding every day at 6am and dozing off after sunsets on glasses of rose? Forever happy, forever free... Is this about the lack of meaning in my day? In my job? The harshness of the void left behind? Is this the pleading of my conscience to go back to a home where I am stable and secure and have needs beyond the fun and sun?
Shit, is this an identity crisis? I can't be bothered... Just when I knew I was happy, was going where I wanted to go, was at peace with myself....

I need to get a new a laptop, and a grip.

6 comments:

Will E. said...

Right, and to top it all off I need to tell you that you should switch off the option of comment notification on your blog cause your excite email is no longer valid and whenever I comment I get an email bouncing back telling me that my mail to you cannot be delivered.. I'm not sure if I explained it well, but you need to switch that option off..

and you need to get a grip ... just remember the world survived thousands of years(some say millions) without laptops.. you'll be okay.

N said...

Wierd, it works with some bloggers, and not others... haven't received any emails from you, it just makes it easier to track..

Maat said...

hmmmm.....naaah u'r fine, it's not about any of the stuff u just mentioned, it's just the dead lap top :) so it's ok, u'll get a new one soon enough and everything will be JUSSSTTT fine :)

N said...

:D thanks maat, i think so too, am juuuust fine :D

Sou said...

Your HP died?! How comforting! I bought an HP last week! *panics*

And don't worry N, things are bound to brighten up for you! :)

N said...

I treated my HP quite badly i must admit... just make sure you don't ignore it when it just shuts down when you turn off the AC :)