Monday, January 25, 2010

Ordinary Love Story - Tribute to K'

It was era's ago. I still wore baggy shirts and took my own notes.
It was two years before we spoke, two years of playing cards every day, a group of four, two of four.
We shared a hand, then shared a laugh, we were inseparable, at the card table that is.
I fell in anguish with his friend, he fell in need-fullness with a girl in my class. A new group of four, those were fun times.
I graduated, he graduated. He wore a band, my heart got crushed, unrelated incidents at the time.
I left the country, he drove me to the plane, he held my hand, he was my friend.
My heart got butchered, his girl left him for more cash. I picked up the pieces, we found comfort in picking up each others pieces. He was my best friend.
He took me to and from every plane that touched home. Little words, no touches save for twice in ten years, the touch of a hand when i left home and when my heart got butchered.
No kisses on the cheeks, no hugs, no looks. He was my bestest friend.
I fell in lust, i let myself ride the wind, i went here and there and let my hair down. Then i went home. He picked me up and took me home.
I lost faith, i swore off the whole thing, i was done. He was the only man i believed. He was my truest ever friend.
He waited. A while. A very little while. He spoke, he wanted, he saw, he knew.
A risk, two friends, of years and years. So much trust, so much love, so many pieces picked up along the way.
It was 6 months before i hugged him back. It was a 100 i love yous before i felt it too. It was a million reassurances before i could really give it a chance.
It was mostly hard for a very long time.

Today, we both smell like our washing detergent. I do not cook if he is not eating with me. I do not sleep if he is not next to me. I cannot sit far away from him. I cannot tolerate the thought of harm to him. My hands find him before i tell them to. My lips reach for him while i am half asleep. My heart goes to him whenever i am away from him. I am as he sees me. I am lovable because he loves me. I am good because he believes in me. I am safe because he is still my best friend. My truest ever friend.

I do not know how long it will last. A month, a year, a lifetime... I do know that today, we both believe it can last forever, and want it to. As naive as that is.

A tribute to you Kaf, may your doubts get overshadowed by your idealism, and may your heart leap in faith despite yourself.

Love you,
N

10 comments:

Aya said...

you're beautiful, God bless.

Maxxed`ouT said...

I read it, and re-read it.
I like your story but i don't buy it.
It's too "ordinary" for my taste!

Thanks for the tribute, i love you too :)

poshlemon said...

This is very inspiring... especially the paragraph that starts with Today, we both smell like our washing detergent.

It was beautiful :) Love can be so beautiful.

Faisal said...

Wow.

"It was a 100 i love yous before i felt it too."

Ana ma3rafsh law el kalam da kollo sa7 walla la2, laken I believe it is bas 3alashan el gomla dee.

N said...

Faisal, el kalam da kolo sa7 :)

are you writing anywhere by any chance?

Faisal said...

Regretfully, I am not at the moment, though I should be (hehehe... should be!) starting again soon. I just quit my job and have more spare time to write and to catch up on the world after a year and a half of... well, not doing that.

Mabrouk tanee!

Juka said...

This is hands down my favourite post on your blog and I've always failed to express extent to which it is touching and heartfelt. Yet this is as a good time as ever to tell you.

Blackie White said...

Hm.
I came across this blog while clicking "next blog" repeatedly.
And, I must say....You're average.
Jesus, you're better than the ridiculous high school crush stories and sex stories I'm sent every day by idiotic teenagers like myself.
But it needs a helluva lot of work...

Teddy Graham said...

I thought your blog was beautiful. Touching. Emotion-evoking even though its not personal to me. I loved it. Although my blog is more sarcasm and cynic than yours, stop by sometime...
http://greatatmakingmesses.blogspot.com

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