Monday, March 23, 2009

First Times

At night in bed after he left my place and went back home, after i spent the weekend at the beach with my friends without him. I reach for my phone and start typing a text message...

"awel marra to3od 7adenny keteer kedda in silence..."

"i just wanted to enjoy taking you in my arms..."

"you've never done that before"

"yes i have"


"i can't remember habibi"

"it felt like the first time"

"that's because you miss me"

"i do"

"i miss you too love"

And then i went back in my memory to the many many times he held me for long intervals in silence. Can it really still feel like the first time?

It amazes me this falling in love with same person every once in a while, its like little leaps of emotion within the same emotion. I never thought it possible.


poshlemon said...

How beautiful...

I was with my ex for 4 years and for most of it, it was passionless. I stopped falling in love after a year and don't ask me how it lasted 4 years...

But, then came along the "2 weeks" guy and I remembered how it feels to have passion... because I forgot. I swear. I don't know how I forgot. I guess time numbs.

This is beautiful what you have.

poshlemon said...

Actually, so that I don't make it sound like my ex was horrible... I know why I last 4 years; it's because my ex is an amazing and great man with so much love to give. The reason I didn't feel the passion is because I didn't love him enough and I was too scared to let go...

Now my conscience is at rest. I just didn't want to make my ex appear in any image short of greatness.

Sand-E Sez said...

give yourself a carte blanche to bask in the glory of it all. everything and everyone deserves it. wasn't there a quote somewhere that says it is only when you are ready to lose yourself that you will be found?

Innate_Inanenuss said...

Excuse me, what's '7adenny'? I find it standing in the way between me and my understanding of this entry.

It can't be like khadenny, right? can it? The context won't allow it. Hope so.

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